Bolakbol

By: King

Good Day to all KM readers!, First time ko pong magsulat sa buong buhay ko at ang story pa ng buhay ko. Pagpasensyahan nyo na po kung baluktot akong mag tagalog kasi ito po kasi ang pinakamahina na subject ko way back in High School and college at tsaka puro laro at pagbobolakbol lang kc ang aking inaaptupag noon.

I will introduced myself first my name is King (totoo ko yang pangalan, pero madami namn dito kapangalan ko), 22 m from cebu and a registered nurse as well. Maputi daw ako sabi nila, pero kung ako ang tatanungin ,kulang pa, brown eyes, slim, bald at 5'6" ang taas. They even told me that I look like Will Devaughn coz the shape of the face, the structure of the body pero mas lamang talaga yun kc artista yun. In short Pogi ako sabi nila.

Walang nakakaalam na BISEXUAL talaga ako since takot talaga ako sa stigma and aside from that my mom is kinda ashame sa ating mga kalahi to the extent na di nya alam pati ako ay kasali sa mga ikinahihiya nya and also my family is known in our local area since they are all religious and politician.

Enough about myself, what i want to tell you is about the story between this young guy named Patrick a 13 year old boy and a certified hunk in his generation kung ako ang tatanungin even mg barkada. He 5'6" ang Ht. as of the moment, maputi, tsinito na parang nangungusap palagi ang mata at Palaging fresh tingnan.

Nakilala ko tong batang to last april of 2013 dahil sa basketball. Sa unang tingin ko pa lang sa kanya parang i was struck by the lightning of love nyahahha sobrang gwapo talaga ng batang to pero i know that he is still too young for me.

Kahit mataas siya sa pangkaraniwang bata sa subdivision namin, siya parin ang pinaka ka kulilat(BOLAY.OG in Bisaya) sa larangan ng basketball kaya palaging nagiging bullied siya. Palibhasa ksai nag iisang anak ng isang Captian ng barko sa ibang bansa at accountant pa ang mom nya kaya di pinapalabas ng bahay not until nag graduate siya ng Elementary.

Ako namn ay nag mamagandang loob at kinaibigan ko siya dahil sobrang crush ko talaga si patrick. Ganun kasi ako pag may crush ako, kakaibiganin ko para mawala ang feelings ko sa taong gusto ko. Tinuroan ko siya sa pagbabasketball tuwing hapon kasi 8am -5pm kc ang duty ko sa clinic pero pag sat.sun iba ang routine namin (Jogging sa morning, tambay sa bahay nya or sa amin pag noon, nuod ng movie, playing dota, at pag sapit ng 4pm laro naman kami ng basketball). At naging regular callmate at textmate ko na siya. Kahit nasa work ako, tumatawag parin siya at nag tetext kahit di namn masyadong magkalayo ang bahay namin atkahit nagkikita naman kami tuwing hapon on weekdays.

Ganun ang set up namin for month of april may. Naging Close ako sa Mom nya at feel at home ako sa bahay nila ganun din cya sa bahay namin. At sabi pa ng mom nya sobrang happy daw nya kahit nasa hustong gulang na ako di ako namimili ng kaibiganin at tamaa daw na ma guide ko ang anak nya. At yun ang pag tingin ko sa kanya ay unti-unting nagbago, parang naging kuya na ang feeling ko sa kanya, Kaya sabi ko sa kanya one time. sa text

Ako: Pat Kuya nalay itawag sa akoa ( kuya nalang ang itawag mo sa akin)

Pat: Di diay ko kay mas labaw pa ka sa kuya (ayaw ko nga kasi mas mahigit ka pa sa kuya)

Ako: So instant bestfriend diay ko nimo? (so naging instant Best friend mo ako?) hahahha

Pat: above bestfriend pa ang na feel nako sa imo. (Above bestfriend pa ang naging feelings ko sau).

so i decided na wag nang e.continue ang conversation namin baka i concluded it wrongly, Ayaw kung mag assume na may feelings siya sa akin, I might Concluded it wrongly so i focus on my remaining time in work since i was working on that time.

As I check my phone after an hour ago, Ive seen 10msg and 5 miscall of him....

Msg 1: Gusto ka makabalo ug unsa jud ang feeling nako nimo? (gusto mo bang malaman ano talaga ang feeling ko sau?)

Msg 2: ayaw lang kasuko ha sa ako isulti (huwag kang magalit sa sasabihin ko ha...)

Msg3: oi unsa na gusto nimo? (oi anu na gusto mo bang malaman?)

Msg4 to msg 10: oi unsa na? (oi anu?)

then i replied him : AYAW na puro ka kabuang bataa ka! (Huwag na! angbatang to puro lang kalokohan)

then Pat replied : Okey :-(

di ko nlang pinatulan kasi bakamasungaban ko pa. My feelings is not yet over pa kaya. Ayaw kung patolan ang mokong kung baka sakali at tska baka I concluded it wrongly...

Then there was time also around last week of May.nasa room nya kami noon, while he is on guitar and i was the one using his Loptop he just suddenly tell me.....

(i will try to translate it in Taglish, I had a hardtime translating it in Tagalog, namn kasi mapurol talaga ako sa Filipino)

Pat: I really feel important to you, and you know why?

(i suddenly stop from surfing the net and watch him closely and answered.... )

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Me: No I dont know why coz i am not Madam Auring hahahha

Pat: Boang!

then he giggled and turned to serious mode again and told me PAT:because you are the only one who understand me better( sa isip ko Syempre nurse kasi ako so I do really know how to deal with people.).

Me: There is no reason why I dont like you hahaha, You are Everything and superb.

Pat: thanks for that King and aside from that you spend much of your time sa akin kaysa GF mo.

{true enough I have a GF in the month of April but they dont know that I ask for a cool off on that time coz i feel like I betrayed my GF for almost a year and half so I decided her to gave her a break. my GF si known in our town since she is quite an hottie which i am proud off. )

Me: We just recently broke up then I smiled.....

Pat:Ohw really? You are not kidding me? the he smiled at me as well

Me:lol I am not,I am not fibbing here..( I stared at him eye to eye in order to convey the message that i am telling the truth.)

he suddenly bow his head and play a music in his guitarand it seems he felt awkward about the gesture that i made. the there is a moment of awkward silence about 30 sec or so i as far as i could remember then...

Pat: Salamat King (then he stares back at me)

ME: Salamat sa unsa? (salamat saan?)

Pat: sa tanan, tanan (Sa lahat lahat)

Me: unsa man ka oie drama man kaayo lagi ka hahahah

(ano ka ba, Bakit ang drama mo ngayon hahahah)

awkward of silence again then he snapped and tell me.....

Pat: naa koy isulti nimo pero mahadlok ko nga mausab ka (i have have something to tell you, but I am afraid you might Change one you knew it)

-he looks so fragile at that time, it seems that he do really carry a heavy loads of burden

Me: Sulti ug unsa na, Bisag unsa pa na, promise nako di ko ma usab nimo, (just tell me what is it, kahit ano pa yan promise di talaga ako mag babago)

Me: 2 ka buwan natang amigo, ug unsa imong isulti andam kung maminaw( 2 buwan na tayong magkaibigan, kahit ano pa yang sabihin mo, handahanda akong makinig.)

I see that pat is now crying, I dont know why,? I do really burst the bubble at that time..... so tumayo at lumapit ako sa kanya at inakbayan ko siya...

Pat: Madawat ba ko nimo kung Bayot ko(would you still accept me even if I am a Gay?)

Me: Yes off course, But you are not a gay right? ewan ko ba kung bakit yan ang pumasok sa isip ko at tumawa pa ako

Pat: continued crying and tell me Yes I am.

I was really shock at that time, I dont really know how to deal with him, It was not just a revelation, it was a big slapped to my face coz i have found a 13 y.o boy who is much courageous than a 22 y.o Man.

Me: ngano naka ingon man ka? (why did you say so?)

Pat: Coz I am in love with you he told me that words while he bowing and playing his fingers at the same time

Me: Basin Confused raka, (maybe your just confused)

Me: basin na ngita ra kag Father Figure since ikaw ug si mom ra nimo naa dri,(Maybe your just looking for a father figure since you and your mom are the only left in this house)

Pat:hindi kasi ganyan ang na feel ko, Ikaw kasi inisip ko kahalikan ko, pinapantasyon ko sa mga private moment ko, at tsaka di naman siguro father figure ang jinajakolan kita

Me: Kailan pa nasimula yan?

Pat: Tagal na pero mas lumala ng maging magkaibigan tau

I become coward again on that moment, what flashback on my mind is my Family, there expectation and I dont want them to be disappointed, so sa isip ko maraming mawala pag I grab this opportunity, mga kaibigan ko, kabarkada ko, ka team ko sa basket, at ang masakit ay ay pamilya ko mismo... I dont want to risk my everything for nothing and besides he is just a 13y.o boy, so i pretend and told him

Me: Pat di ako magbabago dahil sa nalaman ko, pero gusto kung tulongan ka na mawala ang feelings na yan...

Pat: bakit king nandidiri ka ba sa akin?

(gusto ko mang sabihin na we shared same feelings pero talagang takot ako)

Me:No huwag mo ngang isipin yan, Mahal kita (pero dinugtungan ko) bilang kapatid, Ayaw kung masira kung ano mero tayo ngayon. Pero inorder for me to help you move on, baka sakaling lalayo muna ako para di na masyadong lumala pa ang ang feelings mo.

Pat: Akala ko di ka magbabago pero ang pag layo mo ay isang malaking pagbabago...

hangang sa umalis ako sa bahay nila ay patuloy parin ang pagiyak nya... Iyon lang kasi ang naisip kung tamamng gawin. Alam kung nasaktan ko siya but he is still 13 y.o he can surely endured the pain at marami pang bagay na mas hihigit pa sa akin.

I resigned on my previous work para maging malayo ako sa kanya.. Pero parang wala paring silbe ang effort ko kasi siya parin ang palagi kung ka text and call.. Now I know he is enjoying his life being a HS student.

Pasensya na po sa grammar lapses, di po kc ako english major or ab english... thanks for reading it