Skyscraper (Part 3) FINALE

By: Cedric

DISCLAIMER: please don't read if yiu haven't read the first two parts. I know it's my fault writing my story too late. I scencerely apologize for that. Thank you.. CEDRIC

We often watched some extreme dramatic scenes on movies and on television. Like most people, isa ako sa magsasabi na there is just too much happening on a certain series and it seems like these scenarios were all made up. Pero noon yun, what the fuck! Iyong mga pelikula na madrama? Iyong mga akala naten ay hindi nangyayare sa totoong buhay? Shit, these things were real. Para ka lang nilalaro ng tadhana. May point pa na iisipin mo, sa akin lang ba umiikot ang mundo? Am i the main character of this fucked up story? Or reality really fucks us all...

The title Skyscraper is based on Demi Lovato's song. If you know the song, mas easy for you guys to relate it to my story. Pero if you dont know, it is about falling and eventually rising up to be better...

"you can take everything i have, you can break everything i am, like i'm made of glass, like i'm made of paper, go on and try to tear me down...."

The first and second parts relate to this particular verse of the song. How i was broken and how a big part of me was taken away. How i wish that was the worst of it pero hindi. The agony continues...

"pare parang "mini me" mo ah" usal ni leo.

After my dad's death eto yung first time na ngumiti ako, genuine smile. That incredible feeling that this baby is yours. I turn to Leo and hugged him tight. Umiiyak na ako by that time. Ramdam ko rin ang higpit ng yakap ni Leo. Masaya siya para sa akin.

"pare kamukha ko ba?" i asked. " di naman ako singkit eh"

"may pagkasingkit ka kaya, kung tititigan mo sarili mo, mukha ka ring chinoy" banat nya.

"sira, espanyol dugo ko ndi intsik"

"hindi pare, ganyan din mata mo kapag natutulog ka, isa pa mestiza siya oh, mabuti na lang nakuha kutis mo" panguuto ni Leo.

"kulubot nga balat eh, parang bayag, ganun ba balat ko?" patawa ko.

"bahala ka na nga... Basta kamukhang kamukha mo, pareho kayong maganda. Haha.. Akin na lang siya ah" he smiled teasingly and stood farther away from me.

"O bakit ka lumayo? Natakot kang mabugbog ulet? Haha" dagdag ko pang pangaasar.

Sa totoo lang, sobrang magaan ang pakiramdam ko noon at alam ko na walang makakasira sa mood ko. Nagstay si Leo sa hospital kasama ko buong araw hanggang sa ako na yung nagsabi sa kanya na umuwi na.

Kasama kong natulog sa hospital ang mama ni Kat. Malaki rin ang pinagbago ng pakikitungo niya sa akin mula noong unang maging boyfriend ako ng anak niya. Hindi ko rin maman siya masisi dahil nga sa nabuntis ko ang anak niya.

What really bothered me the most that time eh yung kapag kausap nya ako, hindi siya tumitingin sa mata ko. When i asked my mom about that, pinaintindi niya sa akin na ganoon daw talaga ang mga biyenan at sa simula lang daw yan. That's when i realized na maybe tama nga si mama, i just need to make ligaw din kay tita.

2nd day namen sa hospital nung unang beses na ilabas si Renesme at dalhin sa kwarto ni Kat. Ako, si Kat, si Leo and si tita ang naroon. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan yung itsura ni Cherry Pie Picache noon. The plain look of disgust and anger na pinilit ngumiti. Kahit si Leo naramdaman yung bigat ng tingin niya sa bata. Right then, i knew na may trouble.

After 5 days ata nun, nakalabas na si Kat sa hospital since normal naman yung delivery nya. Take note, although hindi kalakihan ang nagastos since sa semi private hospital siya nanganak, ako lahat ang sumagot kahit yung mga pagkain namin nila tita. More expenses to come pero etong si Leo alalay ako, yung unang set ng supplies ni baby siya ang bumili. Guilty naman ako na hindi ko napaghandaan yung panganganak ni Kat, in a way na di ako nakapag grocery for baby needs bago pa siya magdeliver. You know what i have been through bago lumabas si Renesme.

We stayed for a couple of days kila Kat. Dumating na ako sa point na gusto ko na iuwi na muna sa amin ang mag-ina ko dahil ayaw ko mabastos si Cherry Pie Picache. Hindi na maganda ang pakita niya sa akin. Nariyan yung obvious na pagiwas sa akin and kapag di maiwasang magkasama kami eh nababastos niya ako. Obvious din naman kay Kat ang hindi magandang trato ng mother niya sa akin kaya siya na rin ang nagtake ng initiative for us to move out. Parang nabasa niya ang nasa utak ko.

Renesme's arrival to our home was epic. Masaya silang lahat. Yung grief sa loss namen kay daddy eh naibsan kahit papaano everytime na umiiyak si Renesme. Weird pero thats how it goes fot almost three weeks. Siya rin ang nagsilbing blessing sa amin, within those three weeks. Maybe you guys are wondering why i gave emphasis on the"three weeks". After kasi nung third week ni Kat sa amin, she asked me kung pwede siya umuwi sa kanila. I told her na I'll send her home pero she said she's fine and alagaan ko na lang daw si Renesme.

That night, we decided to let Renesme sleep on my mom's room and we had the best sex we had in a long time. Ramdam ko na masaya ako and masaya rin si Kat. And that's what i thought.

The following day, Kat left... That's the last time I ever saw her in person. Leaving me with Renesme. I wont go into details kasi sobrang sakit. The feeling of grief was worsen. Mahal na mahal ko si Kat. I did everything i could pero i didn't manage to reach her. Next thing i heard she was forced to marry an australian man. Money talks. Money can buy everything. Apparently, they are brewing everything behind my back.

Nawala trust ko sa love, sa buhay and sa lahat. I did tried to end my life but my best friends reached for me and it is damn rude to turn them down.

They made me see how beautiful life is, especially with my daughter.

Lahat ng kaibigan ko nagulat din kasi si Leo halos sa amin na nakatira. He never left me thru everything. Nanjan yung time na nagigising ako na nasa tabi ko siya. Sabi niya, it was my mom's request na wag daw akong iwanan. He also said na it is his turn to return ung malaking utang na loob niya sa akin.

I couldn't help but smile, he gave me a tight hug and say, this is his exact word, "tol, wag kang mawawala. Para kay renesme, at para rin sa akin, amin." hinding hindi ko makakalimutan un dahil that was the first time na nakaramdam ako ng matinding init. Init na masarap sa pakiramdam. Yung tipong ayaw mong mawala sa katawan mo.

Days went by and with the support of everyone who loves me, I managed to stood up. Tall. Like a SKYSCRAPER.

Better than before, i got a lot of job opportunity in diffrent countries. Pero i don't want to go yet. Especially when Renesme's first word "appa", which is me, and her first step took place. Ayaw ko siyang iwan. Pati mga tropa at kapatid ko, it's either dada, papa or didi tawag niya, which is cute. Alam ko matalino ung baby ko kasi magaling siyang mag recognize ng tao. Boses ko pa lang tumatawa na. I am happy with this. Kuntento na ako sa ganito.

At one time, my family went to Cavite para magcelebrate ng birthday ng tita ko, sabi ko maiiwan na lang ako with Renesme sa bahay kasi pareho kaming ayaw nagbibiyahe. So buong araw kaming naglalaro ng baby ko. Around 4 pm pareho kaming inantok and she slept on my arms while we are lying in our L-shaped sofa. At 6pm i woke up na may nakahawak sa kamay ko. Si Leo. Maybe he did not notice that i am awake kasi naka upo siya sa kabilang side ni renesme and ung kamay ko na inuunan ng bata eh nasa lap niya at hinihimas niya. Yung parang minamasahe ba. His eyes were closed that time. I moved my hand para i-paalam sa kanya na gising na ako pero hinawakan niya pa ito ng mas mahigpit.

"Cedric, mahal na mahal kita..."

P.S.

Mga people... Pasensya na po kung sobrang matagal yung finale... Ive been very busy here sa Dubai po. The fact na nandito na si Leo. He is sending his regards to all the readers po.  Sana po nagustuhan ninyo kung paano ko tinapos ung story, ayaw ko na rin kasing pahirapan ang karamihan...

A message from me po: Learn from my story, don't let the DOWNS force you not to rise UP. Learn from it, live it and carry on.

Because... They can take everything you have, they can break everything you are, like you are a glass, and like you are a paper, they will go on trying to tear you down, but you must rise... Like a SKYSCRAPER.