By: Seph
Pagkatapos namatay ng mom ko. Naghanap ako ng physical affection from other people. So I decided to get a girlfriend. It's not an easy job. Some girls are pathetic. There were girls that will give you an assumption you shouldnt have. But you got it for she gave you some sign that your assumption is right! But in the end, assumption is just an assumption. You will just hurt yourself in the end.
I'm D'mitri Lopez. A 3rd year student. I'm a serious person for some reason. This world made me this way. We are so fucking rich. But money is not enough to make me happy. I need love. My mom died when I was in 6th grade and unfortunately I 'm the only child they have. My dad is always busy, and mom is the only person who's giving me the caring I always crave for. But now she's gone and I'm stuck with my father. My father became more cold when mom died. So you can say that we dont get along without mom as a bridge, papa and I really cant talk. I have 3 friends. Our 2 yaya's and my father's secretary. Yes. I'm a lone wolf. I'm really a quiet person, maybe that's why my classmates dont like me. Im a boring person ika nga. Pero may isang tao lang sa room na gustong - gusto ko maging kaibigan. Si Aries Maestro. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pero gusto kong mapalapit sa kanya. Maybe I saw him as an opposite side of myself. He is friendly, talkative, quite leader, has sense of humor and the most I like about him is that he's humble. He was elected as a Class representative of our class and he's good at it. He's really good. One day, in the middle of the month of October, I just received one of the greatest accomplishments of my life. I became one of the tops of our class. For being a "so humble person" I am, nanahimik lang ako.
"Galing mo talaga D' ! "
Tumingin ako sa likod ko at nakita ko si Aries. Binati ako ng idol ko. I smiled at him and I told him " thank you". Tipid ko magsalita no ? And he got away. Starting that day, ME, the one who's controlling this body cant predict what will happen next. My life became exciting and unexpected. I can able to express myself in front of my classmates. I just discovered my talent in writing like, poems, short story and songs. Thanks to my english teacher who motivated me in this field of learning. And when the time I became used to the new me, I learn how to be happy. Putting aside my 2 yaya's and my father's secretary, I just got new friends. 3 new friends. Wren , Sam and Miko. Pano naman kasi di ko sila magiging kaibigan, e napagitnaan nila ako. Nung una nga parang wala ako sa gitna nila kung mag usap usap sila eh.
Pero nung nagtagal, naging magkakatropa kami. But when days passed by, the noise in our room is unable to contain, us, as one of the main source of noise in the room, our President forced us to separate. Wren's seat was next to our president, Miko stayed in his position, Sam 's seat was in the front line while I was seated next to our class representative. Next to Aries. Am I gay ? I asked myself when I caught myself thinking about Aries. I dont know why, Maybe it's just I envy him. Yes. I know to myself that this is just me being envy.
October 25 lastday before the sembreak. Is it correct to say it's sembreak ? I think only college students say that. Anyway lastday. Our class planned a surprise for our loving moderator. We bought cakes, presents, and we also made a banner! Arent we so sweet? When the day started, no one greeted her like, " I 'll miss you Ma'am " or so whatever. As in nothing. And when the time she's not around, we went to the stockroom to get the presents, cakes, and etc. And the surprise party is ready knock her head off. To make the story short, the surprise party was a huge success. It's dismissal time and before I can even react, our V.President announces the cleaners for today.
"Lopez and Maestro". Our names together gave me goosebumps. Why? For all people, why him? Argh. Bat kasi alphabetical yung pagpili ng cleaners eh. Dont get me wrong okay? In fact, I Iike to spend time with him but not just the only 2 of us together. We both walked to the stockroom to get our brooms and etc. No one dared to talk, too much silence drowned the insides of me. He looked at me and I looked at him. There was a 5 seconds of eye contact and then, we both look away at the same time. What the fuck ? Naiilang din siya sa akin? So the feeling is mutual. We are both awkward. The time we reached the insides of the stockroom, someone outside closes the door and when the time we checked the door, It's too late. The door is already locked. My heart beats so fast that I might get a heart attack. But when I looked at Aries. He's calm. So relax. Why?
" nalocked na nga tayo wala ka pa ring reaction? "
" tao poo!!! Meron pa pong tao sa loob ng stockroom!!! You happy now ?"
"Of course I m not happy! Tsk. ,"
Sumigaw kami at kinalampag yung pinto pero wala pa ring dumadating na tao. Malas.
"Kanta na lang tayo? Bili bigay ka ng song" sabi niya.
"Di ka ba kinakabahan ? "
"Kinakabahan. Okay lang yan. Mapapansin din nila tayo once na narinig nila yung boses natin. Kaya kanta na tayo." He said it like he is full of hope and then he looked at me with a smile. I sighed and I sat on the floor and closed my eyes.
"Alam mo ? Gwapo ka talaga eh. Kaso pano ka nila magugustuhan with that kind of attitude huh ? "
I opened my eyes and I glared at him. He glared back and soon I know it, it' s a staring contest.
"Okay! I give up ! You win. Okay ? " I said while relaxing my teary eyes. He laughed and he sat down beside me.
"Ano kanta na tayo ?" He looked at me with his puppy eyes. Really? How can I say "no" to that face ?
"I wont give up by Jason Mraz" and I looked at him. He looked at me and he started to sing.
*When Im looking to your eyes...*
Why is he looking at me like that? His voice is like an angel's voice. Shit. And of course, kumanta din ako. At yun nga, kumanta na kami.
Yung huli kong naaalala is yung pinto nakasara pa, pero ngayon nakabukas na. Fuck. Nakatulog kami. Gigisingin ko na sana si Aries. But the moment I saw his handsome face. I know to myself that my heart skipped a beat. "Oy! Tara na ! " I shouted. I tapped his back at yun nagising siya. "Sino yung nag bukas? "
"di ko alam. Nung nagising ako nakabukas na yan eh"
Tumayo na siya at nag lakad na kami palabas . Simula nung araw na yon. We became very close to each other. There's a time that we saw movies together, we walked next to the river together, and of course. The sleep overs are the best. We only did it twice but it's really is " the best". This would be the 3rd time. We both planned to held the sleep over in our house. The first 2 sleep overs were held in Aries' house, so this make it the 1st sleep over in our house. I dont know why but whenever I look at his face, I see a childish Aries. I know that he is excited to go into our house because he never been there before but why is he so excited about it ? We reached our house and started playing games, eating food and sleeping, and eating again. He always telling me about his secrets. Deepest secrets. I know that he trusts me. But it's so heavy to bargain his secrets. But I need to manage it, or else, our friendship is over.
February. Valentines day. As I arrived, I saw a box on my table.
" To: Dmitri Mercado Lopez
From: "
From who???? Time passed by as I became frustrated. I really cant figure out the one who gave me this box!!!! Lunch time, I still let the box wear its wrap. But I know that curiosity can't be always imprison. And mine just escaped. I devoured the wrappings of the box and I was shocked on what I saw, it was a letter and some pictures of me. When did she take this pictures??? Oh my God, there's a picture of me taking a bath in the washroom after our swimming class! Also, there's a picture of me, eating at the cafeteria with Aries! What a stalker she is. The moment I saw the letter, I figured out that it's a confession letter. Before I read, I first look around. Maybe the one who sent this letter is one of my classmates. No one is making eye contact. Tsk. So I sat down and I read.
Dismissal time.
Tae. Ano bang problema nung babaeng yun? Magbi-bigay-bigay ng confession letter, di naman niya nilagay yung name niya. Sorry, curious talaga ako eh. I waited for Aries in our usual tambayan, I cant think of anything because of that stupid letter. Argh. It says that, Im good, im handsome???, I'm kind and etc. It's so overrated, really.
*sigh*
I saw Aries walking toward me. At first, I'm quite pre occupied because of the letter, so I really dont care if he's approaching. But he's with a girl! Lol. Really??? Did they date or something??? And they reached me. Aries look at me sincere-ly. Suddenly, I got nervous.
"hey, D' , uhm, this is Sansa. " i smiled at Sansa and she smiled back.
"Hello, Dmitri"
"Hello Sansa." I looked back at Aries with a confuse look.
" is she your date or something?" I asked
"no, she's my girlfriend, I want you to be the 1st person to know about us."
</3 I smiled bitterly at them.
"Ah, youre in a relationship since when?" I asked
" the day before yesterday."
"Ahhh, okay, so Im gonna keep going, so bye, bye Sansa nice meeting you " I smiled at her and she nodded at me. I dont like to be around with them anymore. I might ruin their date. Aries looked at me and I looked back.
"Wait! " -aries
"what? " -me
"..." -aries
"Aries, what?" -me
"Sansa, can you ask him?" -aries
"Eeee, ikaw na" -sansa
"Ano ba kasi yun ?" -me
"Sige na nga. Tskk. Kasi, gusto ka namin sumama sa date namin eh. Sige na " -aries
"Hala? Bakit pa?" -me
"Sige na , bes" -aries
"Bakit muna?" -me
"Arghh, alam mo naman na 1st girlfriend ko siya diba? 1st date ko din to. Ganun din si Sansa. Parehas kaming 1st timer." Aries said it while glaring at me.
I look at Sansa for confirmation. She nodded at me.
"haaay, sige na nga!" -me
"Yes! Salamat bes! " He hugged me and kissed me on my left cheeck. This is the 1st time na hinalikan niya ko. I've been paralyze for a few seconds. Dont know how to respond. He releases me and inakbayan na niya si Sansa while I stand there, thinking about the kiss. Tsk. Bago pa nila mapansin na tulala ako, e , sumunod na ako sa kanila. Mamaya Aries will think that the kissed he has given me is malaking halaga para sa akin. I will not let him know that. Binayaran nila lahat ng kailangan ko para sa date nila. They also included me when they went to see movies! But of course, I sat away from them. I want them to have their privacy naman. While watching the movie. Napatingin ako kila Aries. Wala lang. Tiningnan ko lang sila kung ano na ba nangyayari. But guess what?! They are kissing. I taste the bile while seeing them kissing. I think I m about to cry. But why ??? As if I have feelings for Sansa , right ? As if I have feelings for.. I have feelings for... Am I ??? I look away. I cant look anymore. Shit. I texted Aries that Im going home. I want to go home.
7:33pm. I reached my house. I saw my dad's car. Shit. Naunahan niya ako. Lagot. Pumasok nako sa bahay at nakita ko si Dad. Bago pa man ako magsalita, nagsalita na siya.
"Alam mo ba kung anong oras na ? Ano ? Gumala ka nanaman ? Lustay ka ng lustay ng pera ah ? Gusto mo bang ipaservice kita ? "
"But Da-"
"To your room. NOW!"
I cried in front of him. I ran to my room and cry and cry and cry. FYI. Im not always like a cry baby. It's just that nagkapatong patong yung stress ko. Bullshit. And I fell asleep.
The next morning.
"Last na to. Pag lumagpas ka pa ulit ng 7, ipapaservice na kita. Okay? "
"Opo"
"Bilisan mo na ang pagkain ng breakfast mo, sasabay na kita papunta sa school."
After kong kumain, hinatid ako ni papa sa school. Fine. As if I have the power to oppose him, right? At school. I saw Sansa and Aries together. So I think Im going to name them as "Saries" . A very cute name for a cute couple. Tsk. But I still feel the jelousy running through my veins whenever I saw them doing sweet things to each other. Habang nag tagal, ewan, mas lalo lang sila naging sweet. At syempre, minsan ko na lang din makasama si Aries. Mukha naman silang masaya eh. Yun nga lang, napag iiwanan ako. March, after ng final exam, nagyaya sila Wren na mag overnight swimming. Nung una, ayaw ko talaga kasi di naman ako papayagan ni daddy eh. Pero dahil mga matatalik ko din namang kaibigan tong mga to. I decided to come along.
After the final exam, we went to our room to say our goodbyes to our moderator and to my classmates.
"Happy summer vacation" I told Aries.
"Happy vacation din" he said while smiling at me. I look away and went home.
The day of the swimming day, I really thought that this swimming is just for the four of us(Wren, me, Sam, Miko). But it turned out that Im wrong. Because Aries and Sansa came. Aries been staring at me since they walked toward us. I know that he knows that Im avoiding him. Argh. But I still ignored him .
We went to the said resort. Naiilang pa rin talaga ako. Promise. It's a big relief to know that the bed of Aries and Sansa is far from mine. Yet, I still feel the agony inside of me. Hinayaan ko lang muna sila mag swimming. Tae ang init pa kaya. 4:00pm Nag boxer lang ako at yun. Nag swimming na ko. But the sad part is that nagswimming ako without my friends. They are all sleeping for fuck's sake. What am I going to do huh ? Tsk. Habang nasa kalagitnaan ako nang aking pag swi-swimming, someone called me.
"Hey!"
I turned around to see who it is, but it turned out na hindi ko siya kilala. She is a freaking goddess.
"Uhm, hey?" I said.
"Want to join us? We saw you all alone there so, care to join ?" She asked.
" uhm, okay, sure." I said. Well? Im alone. And how can I say "no" to her?
"Btw, Im Anna."
"Im Dmitri, " and we shaked hands. Naglakad kami papunta sa ni-rent nilang kubo. Shit. Puro babae sila. Wtf. Anna introduced me to her friends. And after that, nag kwentuhan kami. Mukha naman daw mag kakaedad kami eh kaya daw nila ako niyaya. Ewan. At tinanong nila kung may gf ako, ano ang name ko, san ako nag aaral at iba pang basic infornation. After namin mag kwentuhan, nagbigay sila sa akin ng food at di nag tagal nakatulog ako.
5:30pm
"Hoy! Dmitri! Gumising ka nga ! Hey!"
"Wake uppp!"
And I opened my eyes. Nakita ko si Aries. Tinitingnan niya ako ng masama.
"Oi, hello." I said. Lumingon ako sa paligid ko at wala na sila Anna. Nasan na sila ?
"Anong hello? Alam mo bang kanina pa kami hanap ng hanap sa iyo? Muntikan ka pang madisgrasya!"
"Anong madisgrasya? Eh natulog lang naman ako dito."
"Talaga bang di mo alam ? "
"Oo, di ko alam."
"Di mo alam? Iniwan mo yung sarili mo sa mga lasing na babae at di mo alam yung ginawa nila sayo?"
"O ano naman kung meron nga ? Chance ko na din yun para magka girlfriend ako."
"Oh talaga ? Bat amoy alak ka?!"
"I knew it! That's why the coke tasted weird, they mixed it with alcohol. Tsk. Anyway, what's the big deal? huh ? Im alone and I dont have any better things to do. Kaya sumama ako."
"Please, let's just go back." He said
"No, I'll not go back until you say the reason"
"Please, D' , I dont like to argue."
"Ewan ko sayo bumalik ka mag isa." I told him. There's a moment of silence. And then he speaks.
"KASI NGA NAGSESELOS AKO! This is bullshit."
Napatigil ako sa sinabi niya. He looked at me. I think he's about to cry. He ran without saying anything. Nagulat ako .
"Hey , Aries, wait!" But he did not look back. I feel sorry for myself. I returned to our room and see all of them. Except for Aries.
" where's Aries ?" I asked Wren
"Well, he was looking for you, Dmitri! San ka ba nagpunta?!"
"Long story. Anyway Im going to look for him okay?"
"Yeah, do whatever you want."
At hinanap ko siya. I just want to talk to him okay? Tsk.
Pagkatapos namatay ng mom ko. Naghanap ako ng physical affection from other people. So I decided to get a girlfriend. It's not an easy job. Some girls are pathetic. There were girls that will give you an assumption you shouldnt have. But you got it for she gave you some sign that your assumption is right! But in the end, assumption is just an assumption. You will just hurt yourself in the end. I'm D'mitri Lopez. A 3rd year student. I'm a serious person for some reason. This world made me this way. We are so fucking rich. But money is not enough to make me happy. I need love. My mom died when I was in 6th grade and unfortunately I 'm the only child they have. My dad is always busy, and mom is the only person who's giving me the caring I always crave for. But now she's gone and I'm stuck with my father. My father became more cold when mom died. So you can say that we dont get along without mom as a bridge, papa and I really cant talk. I have 3 friends. Our 2 yaya's and my father's secretary. Yes. I'm a lone wolf. I'm really a quiet person, maybe that's why my classmates dont like me. Im a boring person ika nga. Pero may isang tao lang sa room na gustong - gusto ko maging kaibigan. Si Aries Maestro. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pero gusto kong mapalapit sa kanya. Maybe I saw him as an opposite side of myself. He is friendly, talkative, quite leader, has sense of humor and the most I like about him is that he's humble. He was elected as a Class representative of our class and he's good at it. He's really good. One day, in the middle of the month of October, I just received one of the greatest accomplishments of my life. I became one of the tops of our class. For being a "so humble person" I am, nanahimik lang ako.
"Galing mo talaga D' ! "
Tumingin ako sa likod ko at nakita ko si Aries. Binati ako ng idol ko. I smiled at him and I told him " thank you". Tipid ko magsalita no ? And he got away. Starting that day, ME, the one who's controlling this body cant predict what will happen next. My life became exciting and unexpected. I can able to express myself in front of my classmates. I just discovered my talent in writing like, poems, short story and songs. Thanks to my english teacher who motivated me in this field of learning. And when the time I became used to the new me, I learn how to be happy. Putting aside my 2 yaya's and my father's secretary, I just got new friends. 3 new friends. Wren , Sam and Miko. Pano naman kasi di ko sila magiging kaibigan, e napagitnaan nila ako. Nung una nga parang wala ako sa gitna nila kung mag usap usap sila eh.
Pero nung nagtagal, naging magkakatropa kami. But when days passed by, the noise in our room is unable to contain, us, as one of the main source of noise in the room, our President forced us to separate. Wren's seat was next to our president, Miko stayed in his position, Sam 's seat was in the front line while I was seated next to our class representative. Next to Aries. Am I gay ? I asked myself when I caught myself thinking about Aries. I dont know why, Maybe it's just I envy him. Yes. I know to myself that this is just me being envy.
October 25 lastday before the sembreak. Is it correct to say it's sembreak ? I think only college students say that. Anyway lastday. Our class planned a surprise for our loving moderator. We bought cakes, presents, and we also made a banner! Arent we so sweet? When the day started, no one greeted her like, " I 'll miss you Ma'am " or so whatever. As in nothing. And when the time she's not around, we went to the stockroom to get the presents, cakes, and etc. And the surprise party is ready knock her head off. To make the story short, the surprise party was a huge success. It's dismissal time and before I can even react, our V.President announces the cleaners for today.
"Lopez and Maestro". Our names together gave me goosebumps. Why? For all people, why him? Argh. Bat kasi alphabetical yung pagpili ng cleaners eh. Dont get me wrong okay? In fact, I Iike to spend time with him but not just the only 2 of us together. We both walked to the stockroom to get our brooms and etc. No one dared to talk, too much silence drowned the insides of me. He looked at me and I looked at him. There was a 5 seconds of eye contact and then, we both look away at the same time. What the fuck ? Naiilang din siya sa akin? So the feeling is mutual. We are both awkward. The time we reached the insides of the stockroom, someone outside closes the door and when the time we checked the door, It's too late. The door is already locked. My heart beats so fast that I might get a heart attack. But when I looked at Aries. He's calm. So relax. Why?
" nalocked na nga tayo wala ka pa ring reaction? "
" tao poo!!! Meron pa pong tao sa loob ng stockroom!!! You happy now ?"
"Of course I m not happy! Tsk. ,"
Sumigaw kami at kinalampag yung pinto pero wala pa ring dumadating na tao. Malas.
"Kanta na lang tayo? Bili bigay ka ng song" sabi niya.
"Di ka ba kinakabahan ? "
"Kinakabahan. Okay lang yan. Mapapansin din nila tayo once na narinig nila yung boses natin. Kaya kanta na tayo." He said it like he is full of hope and then he looked at me with a smile. I sighed and I sat on the floor and closed my eyes.
"Alam mo ? Gwapo ka talaga eh. Kaso pano ka nila magugustuhan with that kind of attitude huh ? "
I opened my eyes and I glared at him. He glared back and soon I know it, it' s a staring contest.
"Okay! I give up ! You win. Okay ? " I said while relaxing my teary eyes. He laughed and he sat down beside me.
"Ano kanta na tayo ?" He looked at me with his puppy eyes. Really? How can I say "no" to that face ?
"I wont give up by Jason Mraz" and I looked at him. He looked at me and he started to sing.
*When Im looking to your eyes...*
Why is he looking at me like that? His voice is like an angel's voice. Shit. And of course, kumanta din ako. At yun nga, kumanta na kami.
Yung huli kong naaalala is yung pinto nakasara pa, pero ngayon nakabukas na. Fuck. Nakatulog kami. Gigisingin ko na sana si Aries. But the moment I saw his handsome face. I know to myself that my heart skipped a beat. "Oy! Tara na ! " I shouted. I tapped his back at yun nagising siya. "Sino yung nag bukas? "
"di ko alam. Nung nagising ako nakabukas na yan eh"
Tumayo na siya at nag lakad na kami palabas . Simula nung araw na yon. We became very close to each other. There's a time that we saw movies together, we walked next to the river together, and of course. The sleep overs are the best. We only did it twice but it's really is " the best". This would be the 3rd time. We both planned to held the sleep over in our house. The first 2 sleep overs were held in Aries' house, so this make it the 1st sleep over in our house. I dont know why but whenever I look at his face, I see a childish Aries. I know that he is excited to go into our house because he never been there before but why is he so excited about it ? We reached our house and started playing games, eating food and sleeping, and eating again. He always telling me about his secrets. Deepest secrets. I know that he trusts me. But it's so heavy to bargain his secrets. But I need to manage it, or else, our friendship is over.
February. Valentines day. As I arrived, I saw a box on my table.
" To: Dmitri Mercado Lopez
From: "
From who???? Time passed by as I became frustrated. I really cant figure out the one who gave me this box!!!! Lunch time, I still let the box wear its wrap. But I know that curiosity can't be always imprison. And mine just escaped. I devoured the wrappings of the box and I was shocked on what I saw, it was a letter and some pictures of me. When did she take this pictures??? Oh my God, there's a picture of me taking a bath in the washroom after our swimming class! Also, there's a picture of me, eating at the cafeteria with Aries! What a stalker she is. The moment I saw the letter, I figured out that it's a confession letter. Before I read, I first look around. Maybe the one who sent this letter is one of my classmates. No one is making eye contact. Tsk. So I sat down and I read.
Dismissal time.
Tae. Ano bang problema nung babaeng yun? Magbi-bigay-bigay ng confession letter, di naman niya nilagay yung name niya. Sorry, curious talaga ako eh. I waited for Aries in our usual tambayan, I cant think of anything because of that stupid letter. Argh. It says that, Im good, im handsome???, I'm kind and etc. It's so overrated, really.
*sigh*
I saw Aries walking toward me. At first, I'm quite pre occupied because of the letter, so I really dont care if he's approaching. But he's with a girl! Lol. Really??? Did they date or something??? And they reached me. Aries look at me sincere-ly. Suddenly, I got nervous.
"hey, D' , uhm, this is Sansa. " i smiled at Sansa and she smiled back.
"Hello, Dmitri"
"Hello Sansa." I looked back at Aries with a confuse look.
" is she your date or something?" I asked
"no, she's my girlfriend, I want you to be the 1st person to know about us."
</3 I smiled bitterly at them.
"Ah, youre in a relationship since when?" I asked
" the day before yesterday."
"Ahhh, okay, so Im gonna keep going, so bye, bye Sansa nice meeting you " I smiled at her and she nodded at me. I dont like to be around with them anymore. I might ruin their date. Aries looked at me and I looked back.
"Wait! " -aries
"what? " -me
"..." -aries
"Aries, what?" -me
"Sansa, can you ask him?" -aries
"Eeee, ikaw na" -sansa
"Ano ba kasi yun ?" -me
"Sige na nga. Tskk. Kasi, gusto ka namin sumama sa date namin eh. Sige na " -aries
"Hala? Bakit pa?" -me
"Sige na , bes" -aries
"Bakit muna?" -me
"Arghh, alam mo naman na 1st girlfriend ko siya diba? 1st date ko din to. Ganun din si Sansa. Parehas kaming 1st timer." Aries said it while glaring at me.
I look at Sansa for confirmation. She nodded at me.
"haaay, sige na nga!" -me
"Yes! Salamat bes! " He hugged me and kissed me on my left cheeck. This is the 1st time na hinalikan niya ko. I've been paralyze for a few seconds. Dont know how to respond. He releases me and inakbayan na niya si Sansa while I stand there, thinking about the kiss. Tsk. Bago pa nila mapansin na tulala ako, e , sumunod na ako sa kanila. Mamaya Aries will think that the kissed he has given me is malaking halaga para sa akin. I will not let him know that. Binayaran nila lahat ng kailangan ko para sa date nila. They also included me when they went to see movies! But of course, I sat away from them. I want them to have their privacy naman. While watching the movie. Napatingin ako kila Aries. Wala lang. Tiningnan ko lang sila kung ano na ba nangyayari. But guess what?! They are kissing. I taste the bile while seeing them kissing. I think I m about to cry. But why ??? As if I have feelings for Sansa , right ? As if I have feelings for.. I have feelings for... Am I ??? I look away. I cant look anymore. Shit. I texted Aries that Im going home. I want to go home.
7:33pm. I reached my house. I saw my dad's car. Shit. Naunahan niya ako. Lagot. Pumasok nako sa bahay at nakita ko si Dad. Bago pa man ako magsalita, nagsalita na siya.
"Alam mo ba kung anong oras na ? Ano ? Gumala ka nanaman ? Lustay ka ng lustay ng pera ah ? Gusto mo bang ipaservice kita ? "
"But Da-"
"To your room. NOW!"
I cried in front of him. I ran to my room and cry and cry and cry. FYI. Im not always like a cry baby. It's just that nagkapatong patong yung stress ko. Bullshit. And I fell asleep.
The next morning.
"Last na to. Pag lumagpas ka pa ulit ng 7, ipapaservice na kita. Okay? "
"Opo"
"Bilisan mo na ang pagkain ng breakfast mo, sasabay na kita papunta sa school."
After kong kumain, hinatid ako ni papa sa school. Fine. As if I have the power to oppose him, right? At school. I saw Sansa and Aries together. So I think Im going to name them as "Saries" . A very cute name for a cute couple. Tsk. But I still feel the jelousy running through my veins whenever I saw them doing sweet things to each other. Habang nag tagal, ewan, mas lalo lang sila naging sweet. At syempre, minsan ko na lang din makasama si Aries. Mukha naman silang masaya eh. Yun nga lang, napag iiwanan ako. March, after ng final exam, nagyaya sila Wren na mag overnight swimming. Nung una, ayaw ko talaga kasi di naman ako papayagan ni daddy eh. Pero dahil mga matatalik ko din namang kaibigan tong mga to. I decided to come along.
After the final exam, we went to our room to say our goodbyes to our moderator and to my classmates.
"Happy summer vacation" I told Aries.
"Happy vacation din" he said while smiling at me. I look away and went home.
The day of the swimming day, I really thought that this swimming is just for the four of us(Wren, me, Sam, Miko). But it turned out that Im wrong. Because Aries and Sansa came. Aries been staring at me since they walked toward us. I know that he knows that Im avoiding him. Argh. But I still ignored him .
We went to the said resort. Naiilang pa rin talaga ako. Promise. It's a big relief to know that the bed of Aries and Sansa is far from mine. Yet, I still feel the agony inside of me. Hinayaan ko lang muna sila mag swimming. Tae ang init pa kaya. 4:00pm Nag boxer lang ako at yun. Nag swimming na ko. But the sad part is that nagswimming ako without my friends. They are all sleeping for fuck's sake. What am I going to do huh ? Tsk. Habang nasa kalagitnaan ako nang aking pag swi-swimming, someone called me.
"Hey!"
I turned around to see who it is, but it turned out na hindi ko siya kilala. She is a freaking goddess.
"Uhm, hey?" I said.
"Want to join us? We saw you all alone there so, care to join ?" She asked.
" uhm, okay, sure." I said. Well? Im alone. And how can I say "no" to her?
"Btw, Im Anna."
"Im Dmitri, " and we shaked hands. Naglakad kami papunta sa ni-rent nilang kubo. Shit. Puro babae sila. Wtf. Anna introduced me to her friends. And after that, nag kwentuhan kami. Mukha naman daw mag kakaedad kami eh kaya daw nila ako niyaya. Ewan. At tinanong nila kung may gf ako, ano ang name ko, san ako nag aaral at iba pang basic infornation. After namin mag kwentuhan, nagbigay sila sa akin ng food at di nag tagal nakatulog ako.
5:30pm
"Hoy! Dmitri! Gumising ka nga ! Hey!"
"Wake uppp!"
And I opened my eyes. Nakita ko si Aries. Tinitingnan niya ako ng masama.
"Oi, hello." I said. Lumingon ako sa paligid ko at wala na sila Anna. Nasan na sila ?
"Anong hello? Alam mo bang kanina pa kami hanap ng hanap sa iyo? Muntikan ka pang madisgrasya!"
"Anong madisgrasya? Eh natulog lang naman ako dito."
"Talaga bang di mo alam ? "
"Oo, di ko alam."
"Di mo alam? Iniwan mo yung sarili mo sa mga lasing na babae at di mo alam yung ginawa nila sayo?"
"O ano naman kung meron nga ? Chance ko na din yun para magka girlfriend ako."
"Oh talaga ? Bat amoy alak ka?!"
"I knew it! That's why the coke tasted weird, they mixed it with alcohol. Tsk. Anyway, what's the big deal? huh ? Im alone and I dont have any better things to do. Kaya sumama ako."
"Please, let's just go back." He said
"No, I'll not go back until you say the reason"
"Please, D' , I dont like to argue."
"Ewan ko sayo bumalik ka mag isa." I told him. There's a moment of silence. And then he speaks.
"KASI NGA NAGSESELOS AKO! This is bullshit."
Napatigil ako sa sinabi niya. He looked at me. I think he's about to cry. He ran without saying anything. Nagulat ako .
"Hey , Aries, wait!" But he did not look back. I feel sorry for myself. I returned to our room and see all of them. Except for Aries.
" where's Aries ?" I asked Wren
"Well, he was looking for you, Dmitri! San ka ba nagpunta?!"
"Long story. Anyway Im going to look for him okay?"
"Yeah, do whatever you want."
At hinanap ko siya. I just want to talk to him okay? Tsk.
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