Amnesia

By: Anonymous

There is no such thing as a perfect life. We all live in a cruel and judgmental world. Why can't they just keep their thoughts in their head?  I always have this kind of "thinking " when i was young. People say that i'm like this and like that but i don't want them thinking of me like that. It brings me down and i feel like i'm a loser all the time.

It was a dull and rainy morning i woke up with a headache, and  muscle pains are making my body ill and i can't stand up properly.

"did something happen last night" i uttered. "No.... Wait..  Urgh!!  I can't remember anything " 

"i better call ken" i said.

The phone is ringing but he's not answering.  Wich means......... Something did happened last night! Aww.  My head.

I grabbed my glasses and jumped out of bed. But i stumbled down and hit my chest on the floor

Awwww!!

I shouted as high as i can while my muscles are reacting to the pain it caused from falling on the ground

Me: Ma! Tulong!!

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Me:ma?

That's strange mom is usually home at this day What's happening? why can't i remember things properly did i got amnesia?

Riiing.. 

My phone began to rang and i carelessly answered it without looking who called. I was getting impatient that time and i need answers!

Me: hello ken?  What happened last why is my muscles aching why can't i remember anything last night wh...

Ma: hoy nanay mo to. 

Me: ma?  Nasaan ka?  Bakit wala akon..

Ma: kung Tinutukoy mo ang mga nangyari kagabi huwag kang mag alala. Pinatawad na kita

Me: huh?  Hindi ko maintindihan

Ma: diba sabi mo na kaya mo nang mag isa sa boardinghouse kaya yun.  Papabayaan nalang kita mag isa na tumira diyan

Me: sinabi ko pala yun?  Wala akong maalala.

Ma: you were drunk last night and  kept on saying bad words on me and at the same time you told me that you know how to handle yourself and live by your own

I can hear my mom sobbing on the phone

Me: ma kung ano man ang nangyari kagabi i'm so sorry umuwi ka na please gutom na ako.

Ma: and i know you are

Me: nasaan kana? 

Ma: uuwi na ako sa probinsya

I got quiet for a moment. My heart stopped and i can't hear anything she says over the phone. Is she joking?

Me: hahaha.  Fool.  Hindi ako maniniwala no. 

Ma: Bahala Ka pag ayaw mong maniwala. Sa akin. 

Me: ma huwag mo nga akong lokohin! 

Ma: basta iniwanan na kita ng pera diyan papadalhan nalang kita every week. 

Me: ma please don't do this.  I can't live by myself i can't even cook!

Ma: anak ok lang naman sa akin para matuto kanang mabuhay nang sarili mo. Balang araw magiging lola na rin ako.

Me: pwedeng hindi mun..

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Ma: nak kailan ko nang umalis.  Ingatan mo ang sarili mo ha?  Huwag mong kalimutan kumain at mag sipilyo

Me: ma sandal..

Toot toot toot toot toot toot toot as the sound of the phone kept on repeating. I tried to recall the events that happened last night. But i can't. what could i have said to mom that offended her up to the point that she had to leave me.

 My chest is still aching from the fall and i'm breathing heavily . "Why can't i breathe?"  I told my self

I stood up and touched my face. i can feel the teardrops slowly pouring down on my cheeks.my muscles are even more on pain. I kept on gasping for air and my tears are constantly falling down. "i'm crying" i said.

Riing riing riing

My phone rang again and i make sure to check wether who's  calling.  It's ken.

I cleared my throat and wiped my tears

Me: hello?

Ken: bai!!  Musta naman?  Grabe ang mga naganap kagabi no tsk2

Me: what happened yesterday?

Ken: you mean hindi mo alam kung anong nangyari? 

Me: nope

Ken: birthday celebration ni evan kahapon yung ka blockmate natin

Who's evan?

Me: e diba hindi naman natin ka barkada si evan?  Why did i go?

Ken: i don't know you were pretty excited.  At hindi lang naman ikaw ang ininvite no lahat ng section natin.

Me: o sige salamat i'll hang up

Ken: hey wait!! 

Me: ano?

Ken: ngayon ang ikalawang part nang kanyang celebration anong oras ka aalis sabay na tayo

Me: ayaw kong pumunta no tsaka andami pang housework.

Ken: what?! don't be a party pooper libre na lahat sinabi mo rin kahapon na sasama ka. 

Me: alam mo pre wala talaga akong matandaan kung anong mga nangyari kagabi kaya please don't disturb me.

Ken: pero... 

And i hung up.

Briing briing

He kept on calling and calling me. i recieved his messages and still ignored it. It's just that i can't take all those things.  It's very hard to process

Briing briing.

I answered it

Me: will you shut up ok!! 

I Dismantled my phone and threw every pieces of it. The cover the battery sim and the phone unit.

"annoying" i uttered

I stood up and went downstairs. Searching for the money that mom left. 

"where is it" i said

"i can't find it"

Briing

This time the landline is ringing.

Me:hello?

Ken:baii! Adto ba please!!

Me: i told you i don't want to go napapagod din ako.

Ken:ok fine

And he hang up this time.

Is he playing with me?. I doesn't matter. I don't have the time anyway. Ineed to find the money so i can eat.

I searched everywhere for the money but it's no where to be found. The sala my room and moms room. 

"where could it be i searched everywhere Except for the..  Kitchen of coarse!  " i said

The kitchen i usually locked. So i did not bothered checking it. Mom locks everything in the house even tough were protected and we have dogs in the neighborhood.

Squeek

The door opened i checked first on the sink but still nothing.

"where could it be?" i uttered

I glanced over to the table and i was suprised. Mom prepared me breakfast and the money was set on the table.

"what's this? " i said

there's a note attached on the table :

" nak patawarin mo ako kung iniwan kita nang walang paalam.  Alam ko na kaya mo nang tumira diyan mag isa. Kaya iniwan nalang kita.  Pero mahal na mahal pa rin kita :) huwag mong kakalimutang kumain ha? "

"thank you mom.  I love you to"  i uttered

I checked and count the money

"your always cheap.  hahahaha" i said

"'Sigh' mom i love you "

I ate breakfast and started cleaning the mess i made.  I also reassembled my phone.  Good thing it didn't break. I Read the texts he sent me.  And one text really bothered me.

"baii i have a plan for you this night.  Don't worry i won't rape You. well have a good day then. See you later