By: Gormel

Jake
Kahit anong gawin ko, I know I don’t have a choice.
“Jake alam mo namang ayoko din gawin to, but I don’t want you to suffer, you have your school, hindi kita maalagaan ng maayos”
My mom was trying her best na pagaanin ang loob ko, habang tinutulungan akong mag impake ng mga gamit.
Mom was diagnosed with Leukemia 3 months ago and it’s starting to get worse, the signs were already visible sa mukha nya. I stayed quiet though it breaks my heart na hindi ko sya kayang tulungan sa sakit nya, and I feel helpless and useless 12 year old kid.
We’ve been alone for four years na, nang malaman ni Mom that Dad was having an affair and what’s worse, is that they’ve been seeing each other since a year I was born at nagkaroon din sila ng anak.
When mom knew of his infidelity and the length of time na niloko sya nito. She decided to end it. She never asked me to hate my dad for what he’s done, she always tells me na mahal na mahal ako ni daddy, and kahit na she, and Anton, my dad’s name, lived a life of lies, my dad’s love for me is genuine, but I can see the hurt sa mga mata niya, and everytime na she’s alone sa room, I can hear her muffled cries.
That’s when I decided to never talk with my dad again, he tried na sunduin ako sa school or call me, pleading me to talk to him, everytime,